Dont call me up ehen hes drunk and alone

instead i ended up calling them and neither of them answered. i also had kind of a fight today with my best friends, cause im feeling replacable with them its like my presence equals my absence with them, so i ddnt hangout with them today to see if they would care, not one of them called me to see what was going on. i feel hopeless trying to manage everything, im on a fight with my mom cz i didnt run after my sister to get her back home, my sister thinks she is useless around the house and with me cz she is seeing that i can do it on my own so she is not coming back and she told me that i dont call her and stuff but how many things can i juggle? i feel hopeless and replacable. they are both spoiled by their parents they get everything they ask for meanwhile i suffer to get anything from my dad. and they just call me on weekends to ask me if i wanna hangout with them. its me who is always calling both of them to check up on them allthough i see them everyday at school.

lauren and i have had our differences and i dont trust her because she bterayed me many times in the past, but this year im feeling closer to her and tina knows everything about me, but whenever i tell her something like a problem or such ,she just nodds and advises me to forget about it, i mean she never really helps me out or gives me an advice, she doesnt ask about whats going on with me, its like we just hang out to gossip and talk about guys and go out. and lauren is the funny hyper time friend. i have 2 best friends, Tina and lauren, tina is the smart scientific understanding friend, she finishes my sentences and such. i am now cleaning the house, handdling my drunkard dad, and all of his disgusting habbits, and studying. but about a month ago she told me she couldnt handdle it anymore that im not helping her around the house with the cleaning and with handdling my dad, and i told her that i couldnt help her cz i had lots of studying to do to pass my mid-terms, she wasn't conviced and left the house to live with my mom's friends. ever since my parents god divorced its been me and my sis, she is now 23 years old. my mom lives in another country to work and comes 1 month each summer to see us. unfortunalty i live with him, sometimes he is very mean especially when he is drunk but other times when he is sober he is great with me which makes it easy for me to forget about what he does to me when he is drunk, he can't quitt driking he is 59 and addicted. My dad is an alcoholic gambler, and he doesnt come home often, he comes home at 4 or 5 am. Im 16 years old going on 17, i have one sister and my parents got divorced when i was 7 years old but them getting divorced didnt really bother me.

Dont call me up ehen hes drunk and alone